hi nane && grandad as you no i was going threw my emails cuz me and luke was talking and this popped up so i came on sorry i ent bein on in ages i just bein to selfish and wrapped up in my own world. i just need to tell grandad that im sorry i ent kept to my promise yet but i wil i just cant bring myself to do it it wil make things to real i miss you ever so much the pair of you. i miss bein grandads girl and cuddling up to him or out play fights i cant help but think of when he was lay there in the coffin and i held is hand it was so hard and horrible i just wish we could go back to when i was at yours & you used to moan at me for textin or spending to much money im ever so sorry you no grandad. i no iv let you down but all i want to do is make you proud from now on i love you both. && nan im sorry too you both no why. i wish i could have you back in fact id do anything. i love you ever so much so as i cry or a silent tear drops remember im not cryin because im sad im cryin because threw all the pain i no your happier and out of pain but grandad if you only went the doctors i tell myself you wait til i get to hevan im telling you right off for not going. i love you my ANGELS sleep well until i see you again. i love and miss you && i no your happy but it hurts not having you hear now. O9.O9.O9 && 12.O5.O3 GODS FINEST. (LLL) <3