hiya nanny carol happy mothers day i love u loads and miss u so much i can remember when i found out u had died it was such a strange feeling it felt like some one had froze my heart and ripped it out and scrambled every thing in my brain i found it hard to breath and hard to do well anything realy it was just horrible and the days that followed were even worse mum was inconsolable i didnt know what to do she wouldnt stop crying through all her grief tho she had to deal with every one else she had 2 keep everyone else strong and help everyone else with there pain and grandad i hated seeing him upset but the worst of all was uncle mark he scared me he was crying constantly and had a break down it was horrible i hated seeing him like that but he helped me alot he sat in the kitchen comforting me when i cryed i didnt want 2 show mum i was upset she had enough to deal with. Well nanny i am 18 now nearly 19 i have a little boy called lewis he is a little terror but i love him loads i also have a little girl on the way she is due the 31st of may we are going to call her miley i also have a great husband he is called anthony i think you would get on with him he is a laugh just like you lol i hope u are proud of me nan i hope you are happy for me i realy miss you nan i sometimes realy need you i still sit here and cry to myself nan i feel lost with out you i feel empty in a way but just want u to know that on this special day how much i love you and hope u are happy where you are and are watching over us all proud of how we have grew up love you so much nanny c xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx